i grew up in a very different environment than what i’m in now. very conservative.i was home schooled. if you’ve ever seen the 19 kids and counting on TLC – that’s how i grew up. the whole dress modest, date and marry the same guy, stay home and wait for “prince charming” – sometimes now, i feel like the rebellious old maid because i’ve moved out of my dad’s house and i’m not married… but that wasn’t the life style for me.
I’ve picked a very different lifestyle for myself. I live in the city with people from every part of the world and walks of life. i’m in the beauty industry, and honestly, i don’t know what my natural hair color is anymore. I love to be in style, wear makeup, and one day i plan on getting a nose ring and a tattoo.
My mother passed away when i was very young, and most of my memories of her were times spent in the hospital. but, i believe that she would be so proud of the woman i’ve become and how i’m chasing my dreams.
I’m very thankful for both my father and my sisters who have supported me along the way as i’ve followed dream and kept my focused on what is truly important in life.
I know that looking at me – or reading my facebook/twitter post, you are probably thinking “wow, she isn’t the little girl we remember” and you are exactly right. i’m not little anymore. i grew up very fast compared to most. i was raised by my father and two older sisters. my life changed. my opinion change. my lifestyle changed.
but, the one thing that hasn’t changed is my core value and that is my faith and relationship with Jesus Christ. I do my best to make sure that everything i say and do is honoring to Him, and that i’m representing His love to others – whether they believe in Jesus or not.
today, i walked into a crowded room full of what use to be “my people” and for the first time, i felt like the outsider. the ugly duckling of the group. because i clearly didn’t fit in. at.all.
I’ll probably never fit in, but please know that just because i may look funny on the outside to you, doesn’t mean we aren’t the same on the inside.